With this personality test I finally found the right partner

I went to sleep alone and woke up alone. I went on vacation alone. I sat alone at my favorite restaurant in the evening. Walked alone in the park. Jogged my laps alone. I was alone. I wasn't aware of that at all most of the time. But there were those moments when the bike stopped and I had a moment of peace. On the beach a couple passed by holding hands. In the restaurant at the next table, the food was lovingly shared. On the park bench a pair was enthusiastic about each other. Then the realization fell ravenously over me and left only rarely something of my self-confidence. Then the desire awoke in me to be loved and to feel I belonged to someone.

"Just right" was not there yet

It wasn't as if I'd never tried before, it's just that it wasn't as easy as it looks in the Parship ads! The older I got, the clearer it was what I wanted and what I didn't want. Each experience made me less willing to compromise and more selective. Until at some point no one could satisfy me. Sometimes it was the appearance, sometimes a gesture, the body odor, the opinion, the choice of clothes, too affectionate, too matter-of-fact, the voice, the job, too sensitive, too rough - if I had been able to overlook many things in my younger version, that was no longer possible for me now.

There is also no room for anyone else

I also often thought: How am I supposed to let anyone else into my life? Into my fixed routines? My busy schedule? Where was there room between my interests and hobbies? My life was perfectly focused on me and my needs. If I did get carried away with taking a date because the wine had made me sentimental and clingy, I was so disgusted by the morning after and the fact that someone was in my bed, in my apartment, in my way, that I wanted to be alone again as soon as possible.

I am not a loner

The quick sex, I always got that. But real cohesion? Backing? Support? Someone I could sit next to without having to talk? The feeling of security and a kiss in the morning? THAT was what I wanted. I never thought that the path to a fulfilling partnership would start with myself. I needed to gain an even deeper understanding of who I was and what I wanted, but more importantly, I needed to learn to accept myself so I could finally accept others.

Finally united in satisfaction

And suddenly thinking about a relationship became possible again, I became creative and ready to create my own relationship model. Today I am happy in my relationship. I still like being alone - the difference now is: it's a voluntary decision and not like a stroke of fate that I can't escape.

Today I live belonging that feels good and right